Baby Steps

I've decided that my outlook on life needs an overhaul. This is going to be a long and painstaking process, but after much consideration and meditating on this fact, I've learned that there are things about me that need to change. I am not becoming the woman I want to be. I am not living up to my potential in any area of my life. I am letting my depression and anxiety get the best of me, and it is hindering spiritual and mental growth.

But it all starts with baby steps. Little changes I can make on a daily basis that may seem menial but will only pave the way to make bigger changes that will help me to become a better person and purge some of this negativity I have hanging over my head like a black storm cloud.

Baby steps. Like emptying the ashtray after no more than three cigarettes butts have accumulated in it.

Like getting my car's oil changed on a regular basis (if my finances allow.)

Setting my alarm a few minutes earlier in order to get to work on time not just most of the time, but all of the time.

Baby steps. Like keeping my desk relatively free of clutter.

I've already proven to myself that I can keep my checkbook balanced, stop after one or two beers, and turn down sex with someone I'm not even into.

There's going to be trials and tribulations along the way, and I have to keep this in mind. I will be tempted to drink myself into oblivion, and while that's okay for me every once in a while, it doesn't have to happen every time I go out. I may fall prone to the occasional one night stand, but I don't have to go out and seek one every night.

So it's all about baby steps. This is just the beginning.