Welcome To My Groove - February 2012

What is my purpose for starting this blog?  To give others an inside view of living with depression and anxiety, not just the woe-is-me, "I hate my life," whiny perspective that I find is all too common.  I want this blog to be informational, yet personal.

Some background on myself -
  I've been struggling with depression and anxiety for the majority of my life.  Yes, I grew up a privileged white girl in suburbia who had two loving parents, wanted for nothing and boatloads of friends.  Now I am a still somewhat privileged white girl in her late twenties, still living in suburbia, with a college degree and decent job, even more friends, an adoring little nephew, a loving family, the phone numbers of more men whose faces I can't even remember stored in my phone, who has done more and been more places than most people I know.

So what's your deal, Dana?
The truth is, I don't fucking know.  If I could understand why depression afflicts certain people and leaves others alone, why it makes those of us who do have it feel the way we do, I'd have an answer.  I don't know the reason why I feel alone in a room full of people, or even with someone laying in bed next to me.  I don't know why I feel like no one "gets it," like no one gives a flying fuck about me, but dammit I just do.

I'm starting this blog to track my progress as I travel down this long hard road to recovery and am going to do everything in my power to keep it going, for myself, for anyone else who feels this way, for people who don't understand what it's like for those of us who are unfortunate enough to be afflicted by this awful demon called Depression. And I'm also doing it for my mother.